My birthday is coming soon . still rather thinking who will surpise me with somethings or who will celebrate with me. But i have to see will i have to chance to celebrate or i had to stay in camp.

time have passed , realised lots of things. i have learned that the person i trust so much is myself. frenz or even family are always care for themselves hardly they will care for u.

 

   lolx finally juz finish my vocation course , i'm now a qualified tankee gunner. Hmmm.. so at first i wonder how am i going to spend my blocked-leave but in end it was crashed with lots of stuff arghh but at least i managed to club a few days in MoS n Liquid Room. Kinda sick of clubbing n my resources are low so guess i had to stop my clubbing days haha.

   Juz bought a Jacket GUESS Vintage woah cost me a bomb $165 . i'm amazed how am i gonna survived this month haiz.btw serious i really can't make this effort to write my blog or design my blog but i will be surpised or hoping someone would ever wanna read my blog so post a comment to me n plz give me a hand of designing my blog cos i ain sucks in designing haha .

 

   Yawn finally i pass through my Basic Military Training . I miss my brother-in-arms some had sign on some had post out. It was my happiest time ever in my life where all my buddies suffer thur the hardship together and the joy we enjoy haha.

   Now i'm tankee .I been chosen to become a tankee which was one of dream before enlisting into national service but kinda disappointed cause i was chosen to become tankee driver and ended up to become a tankee gunner.Woah there are many things to be learn n lots of hardship . i'm also had grease almost all over my face haha.

   kekez this are the few momments tat happen in my life haha to be continue ....

   It was very long ever since my last blog. All these time i was very busying with lots of things. I learn alot during these few months and regretted lots of things. Rite now i'm serving in my national service which i'm very proud to be in SIngapore Armoured Forces.

   During the nov month i got to know wad is the real society like. Juz a advice dun trust anybody and especially somethings to do with cash . People are really that realistic including me but i'm not really money-minded person. I'm a soft-hearted and a most dumb person in the world who trust my friend with my money. After that incident i learn my lesson .i was pretty disappointed with all these things happen around what really went wrong , is an shit hell to me . i'm outta of da gang.In lifetime i regretted lots of things and i really wish i could turn it back . But there is no choice , i have to move on....

Keeping updated this few days

 

   hiz it has been a long time since i ever update this blog.I was too busy and not a time to use the com.Hmmm.. lots of things happen to me ritez now . But i'm still alert where i'm heading n wad is my goal. I had quitied my school where teacher are kinda sarcarstic n biased . i'm far off better than the worst which a par wif me but why must i leave . I'm sure they will somehow get their setback .

   Since now i quited school , i when to sign up for my NS . So ritez now i gotten myself a job in pending to NS. I learn quite alot n realised lots of things. I guess everytime i ever ritez this blog i feel myself change into a better person.I have a goal now n i wish to pursue it n no matter wad i will work hard for it.

    hmmmm.... my about my love life hahah no one in mind . at the momment set up my career first den come into relationship . too lazy to find a girlfriend so depends on my fate .Maybe i dun intend too haha cos had to save money for the business i'm setting up .
     So ritez now i'm kinda business thinking n a social man . i had a very great network of frenz but the only frenz i belong is to regent heights ... Hope Regent bro will last forever  

FeeLing Lonely .....
I was a guy who was kinda hearted n naived at first.
Juz tat i forsee lots of things , It was meant for the things tat i wan.
Now i haf realised i'm not the way i was as last time.
Is time for me face the reailty den escaping.

Is has been a long since i never update my blog. Lots of things happen to me . I'm back to my poor state , had to work and pay lots of debt. Suddenly i can see throught all my friends , telling myself wad kind of person are they ... It wasn't the chalet i wouldn't find out myself is kinda disappointed but i chose to keep myself slience . There aren't any true frenz in the world. 

Right now the only thing i can is to keep a distance away can't really treat them good.Happen to meets lots of girls during the whole month of march...Hmmm... at first i was really to desperate to find for a stead i kinda stupid but when all those girl flinging i gave myself a though to choose a girl tat i really wan for life.

My class has changed during the sentosa camp. I enjoyed being with them but not at the time being after they become very sarcarstic , hypocrite , kinda act boldly fierce , selfish .They kinda immature really the way i see them. Wad's the use being fierce or reprimanding or yelling at other ppl.
I won't yell at ppl cos my nature is kind-hearted but i do get flare i will directly punch those ppl who treat me disrespect .

tats alll for my marchy month...

didaboi :p

Today was kinda pissed arghh the stupid teacher kept flinging on me damn it mahz.But luckliy she didn't spoil my mood cos i was laughing the whole day with my retarted frenz named georgina. She kinda fierce at first but in the end i always play joke on her . Lol i can whole day laughing wif her laugh until the test came we totally fail wad a joke lol. Hope i can everyday laugh.k that all i wanna say k
jakesze

woah is very fun tat nitez .Me n my whole regent beng were celebrating is was a very joyful but kinda sad cos my frenz Yuniko had to go oversea won't be back for a very long time . We sang lots of songs dedicating to him.

Today is valentine.Too bad there wasn't a date for me. Pretty sad bored for me today. Can't really understand a girl's heart. wad to they actually wan , where can i find a girl tat also truly love me.

Every year thought of find a girl to spend valentine wif me but i there wasn't for me at all.
I have been hurt fcuking deep 2 times in my heart n now any harm to it became numb.Can feel anything at all.

Am i ugly shit or wad ?Maybe singaporeans very realistic unlike girls from france who are truly fanatic interested in their love life.

I have a french girl who i got to know her when she was in singapore. She's very pretty n fair any guy would like to have her for lover. She now's one of my long lost frenz's soul who he is a singaporean. While one was here the other was there kinda envy them.

haiz guess really had to let fate decide. Maybe i was fated to be a lonely soul throught out the whole journey ...

May the light shine on me
In the tears of my eyes
never ever would i drip a tears for her in my heart

Jusitified the love tat i wanna haf
is this unfair to me
Escene would be the blog i would i wanna had

jakesze 14/2/2005 11.52pm